fingerprints

"our fingerprints don't fade from the lives of the people we touch"

I so know that to be true. once a man came through my line while i was working in a book store. he was native american had long black silk for hair. upon his left middle finger was a turquoise ring so beautiful i wished it was mine. he said to me "child," (as he reached for my left hand to put in his) "your soul is very old, you have lived many lives and carry the troubles of those lives. your spirit is beyond this time and space. you are a part of the gods hearts, they love you and give you a gift of foreseeing, did you know?" i told this amazing man holding my hand, "yes, i know" yet he was not done, "your spirit will fly with the eagles when you time is done on this earth you will move to a place of peace and love, and i will see you there." he bought his how to cook for one book and with a wink he was gone...his fingerprints will never fade from my life.
how amazing it is that things like that happen, it wasn't the first time i was approached by a stranger and i doubt it was the last. but it resonates within me.
you see, i love people. they my be mean and cruel, they may come with a black heart, but there are the ones that making loving people worth it. thanks mom, gramie, sharon, eve, bones, james, jess. thanks for reminding me that there are pure spirits abound.thankyou man at my counter. lady in the elevator. man on the street. it goes on, but for now you know who you are if your living right, i am thankful to you.

blessed be we all are each and every day.

this came out today.

who is it that said "the truth shall set you free" ? check this, as i am heart broken feeling stupid and used my favorite and only trustworthy astrologer says...

CANCER (June 21-July 22): This would be an excellent week to grieve
madly and deeply about the old love affairs that shattered your heart. I've
rarely seen a better astrological configuration than there is now for
purging the residual anguish from those old romantic collapses. So I
suggest you conduct a formal ritual that will provide total exorcism and
bring you maximum catharsis. Maybe you could build a shrine containing
the photos and objects that keep a part of you stuck in the past, and
maybe you could find the bold words and innovative gestures that will bid
goodbye to them forever. Do you have any intuitions about how to create
a rousing healing ceremony?


beat that black hearted bitch

maybe ill sing him a last little sound

Have you ever been left behind? your feet trailing so much slower than the ones practically running in front of you, running from you?
i have.
As of late I've been trying new things...like grammer,lol watch out. Praying daily has been a part of my dayly life for so long now, but now i pray with a lightness in my heart I carry no casual dread while i pray i let everything fall around me and conncet to the spirt. it is amazing, try it. I have been trying to look in the mirror and see someone beautiful, not an ugly girl. trying that is really hard.
this blog! i was just using it as an outlet for sad poetry but now i wanna talk out loud with my keyboard. so here goes nothing but randomness! :)

NEW!

Ok... so I want this to be a cool blog. One that i can talk about my life and friends. One with stories and photos.

so lets look forward to that I've gotta figure some blog stuff out then I'll be posting away:)

namaste'

s-

not sane

watching myself in the mirror - i'm dancing again. who knew?

stuck in a fungus filled funk, im a lot tired. i cant find the strength to get out of my bed it makes me sad i'm filled with sadness - filled

where is the place i can go home. i need to feel like me.
this misdirection is taunting.

i keep trying chemicals to even out my brain , they keep failing.

why.

why do my eyes burn from blue blue tears?
i feel like im standing alone in a baby swimming pool, you know the ones from walmart. It doesn't have any water in it.
what the hell is going on?
i can't be this crazy.
jumping outta my skin crazy. bizarre feelings engulf me and my heart and my self.
these words made no sense. make no sense.

I want a movie theater that serves beer and shows movies for cheap.

I want to learn humility, patience and how to love wholly and freely.

I want to help erase cynicism from the forefront of my generation's mind and attitude.

I want to embrace that which makes me uncomfortable and uneasy.

My first list of wants would indirectly benefit or effect others, I guess. My motivations aren't awful.