no gravity

my heart weeps.
its blood is pouring into my body, presses against my skin looking for a place to get out.
just to get out.
i understand my heart that way.
i need to get out of myself.
run.
run.
run.
it will never be far enough or close enough to where i need nor where i want to be.
i can't handle me.
finding me is lost.
there is no gravity governing me.
amongst the sparkly star i wish apon each night holds the dreams i have lost.
how do you dream again?
if you have nothing inside, if you are void of want, how do you find it and own it again?
im thinking of painting my nails red. maybe my heart will feel a bit better to see its color splashed onto the outside.
i wonder, in deed i do.
i have all that i want.
i have all the love i need.
i can not find me.
can not find me.